Hearts

Yesterday nite, i hav a class gathering wit my 5S1 friends. Im happy to meet wit them again after quite a long time din meet with each other. Our life is different, college life and form 6 life. Many of them will go for further study overseas soon. So, this is our last gathering before they go chasing their dream. I really appreciate it very much. Thx guys... especially Marcus cauz he organized this activity for us. For those who will going further study soon, i will pray for u all ^^ GAmbateh ya friends. At the same time, i oso will study hard and chasing my dream in local uni. So, v must work hard together loh...

Recetly, many things happened consecutively. Major of them are unhappy stuff. I make my mum worried for the 1st time due to my skull thing. She scold me but i know she was very worry bout me. But mum, u must blieve ur son dat he is unbeatable. I promise wont make you worry anymore. Im damn tired with those gossip and rumours. Who started to spread all of this, they knew it. I hope that, pls stopped it when it havent too late. Our form 6, is like a war now, but is a silent war. I wish 2 stopped it so i din do any revenge until now. YY, KS, SY, u all know wat im thinking, thx ^^

Luckily, i still have my last property- my juniors. They are my motivation and the ppl who make me standing until now. My sejarah juniors,mte juniors and my lovely juniors, thx a lot. They all understand wat situation they all facing now but they din influenced by those stupid stuff. But i know, sumtime they are unhapi too. However, im proud of them. Prove it out dat u all can make it! Another junior, who bring a lot of prob 2 me sumtime, yet im still blive and care bout her. I hope i wont judge wrong ppl not beacause i blieve wit my choice but i blieve wit u. Sumtime when i emo, she will bring me some hapi elements. Thx thx thx ^^ Nxt week is our skull prom, she is my partner and i hope we will enjoy it very much.

MTE days just left 10 days only. I start 2 woorry bout their task. Although this is a normal feeling but i really hope they can success this activity. And i know, u all will make it! Sumtime i think, quarrel, gossip, spreading rumours all this is for wat act? For me, all of this is meaningless. I know i cant do anything on it, hope ppl doing wat i wish, but sincerely i hope they will stop the war and bring peace back.

是非(13.07.2009)

是是非非、真真假假随着社会的进步愈来愈难分辨出来了。虚情假意、口是心非逐渐取代了以诚代人、真心真意。最近，我在生活里见证了这一切我并不太愿意接受的现实。交情不错的朋友，原来是在背后放暗箭的那一个;表面上嘻嘻哈哈的朋友，原来心里还是无法放得开某件事;嘴里老是挂着为大众好的口号，其实是最自私的那一个。这也只是冰山一角，但确实令我感到痛心。真诚的对待，得到的是好朋友在背后抹黑自己，见面时却称兄道弟，不禁佩服那些面具带得出神入化的朋友。我确实是很失望，但又能怎样呢？唯有配合地和他们称兄道弟？和带着面具的朋友相处，真的很不好受！我讨厌这一切，同时也知道自己无法阻止，就顺其自然地接受它。不过，我决不会让自己成为面具的上等阶层，因高攀不起。对我的抹黑，我也不会特意去为自己说话，就让大家的眼睛来证明。我不是一个帅气的人，但也不须要靠面具对待他人。　

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7月4日　晴　　　
很多人都说，会梦见有些事情是因为自己想得太多。也有句谚语道，日有所思，夜有所梦。刚从睡梦中醒来，梦见了我和她一起庆祝生日的情景。梦境的情景是有点奇怪，我见到她身边有另一个他，结果就扫兴地离去。之后，我想见回她，但却见不回了。

明天就是她的生日了，我什么也没准备，本想简单地做张生日卡给她，但却还没开始动工。去年，我兴致勃勃想为她庆祝生日，但最终一切泡汤了。今年，我什么也不敢去想了。很多事情，其实自己都早已心里有数。对她的感情，我也不再执著，不再放不下了。这不代表我已经不喜欢她，只是我不再去多想了。其实，我早就已经应该这样。

哎，好像越说越哀了…就希望她有个愉快且难忘的生日。提早祝你，
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