Trial exam is coming. I think this is my last post before trial. Same as usual, exam bring me a lot of pressure and i think it is same to others. I just hope that i could achieve the targets in my mind. I no need a very good results but at least not too bad. I know that it is very difficult for me to achieve 4As' in STPM but i will try hard and never give up.
My birthday is coming also. Unfortunately, this year birthday fall on my trial exam. Sigh >< Special thanks to those who wished me last year. Shi yong, Yee chian, Mei ying, Shy miin, Mun jie, Wee wen, Jean yi, Wei wei, Teng ann, Ker wei, Huei ying, Sok kuan, Pei chi, Junn terng, Kai wen, Si wah, Pea woon, Wei shan, Lee ping, Yin yuin, Cai yi, Zhen yi, Kai han, Bao jia, Sher li, Poh yen, Sheen Jze, Wai mun, Chor yau, Jean nie, Chia khuan, Sern tat, Xue ying, Ying yi, Kwee wen, Ying jie & Kin keuw. It was really happy and comfort when received wishes from friends. ^^
Finally, i want to remind my junior what she said. At the same time, i hope she will have the chance like Chia Heng, always feel so proud with his foster. Hope so, but i konw that it needs a lot of sacrify.
Haix... study... But after i leave form 6, i know i will damn miss FORM 6 LIFEs.
*I promise that i will never let myself regret. *
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
心，侧写
昨晚与朋友一起喝茶，谈了一些关于他感情的事。逃避，是因为你还在意着。我说了这样的一句话，但自己却忽略了好久。
不知从什么时候开始，我对自己说不想再见到她，也不想邀约她出来。我心想，一切顺其自然，若有缘的话3、5、7年后再偶然相遇也不错。这样一个奇怪的想法，像似领悟到了什么大哲理，其实不然，我只是在逃避。我跟本无法顺其自然，甚至限制着自己的想法。我不想见到她，是因为我在逃避，因为我还在意。
以前，当我不开心时都会习惯性地找她倾诉；不知从什么时候起，我开始压抑着自己不再找她，把烦恼都藏在心里。我怕她当时心情也不好，为她增加烦恼；我怕她正忙着，不太方便；我怕和她的世界不相同，彼此会有隔核。其实，我都知道这一切只是给自己的借口，我一直都在逃避。我知道我和她并不是同一世界的人，我知道我和她并不可能，我也知道我配不上她。说穿了，我在她面前变得自卑。我曾经很相信，真心可以胜过一切，但事实证明是我太天真了。她家庭富有，条件出众，身边也从不乏追求者，我真的自觉高攀不起。曾经美好的回忆，对我来说可能就是最好的回报了。我不懂为何我会这样的懦弱，对不起。
感情应该要拿得起、放得下，但偏偏我是个很难放下的人。我尝试放下，学习着如何放下，也开始见到效果了。我知道既然已做出了选择，就不应该再拖泥带水。我是个不太喜欢改变的人，但也是时候作出改变了。
不知从什么时候开始，我对自己说不想再见到她，也不想邀约她出来。我心想，一切顺其自然，若有缘的话3、5、7年后再偶然相遇也不错。这样一个奇怪的想法，像似领悟到了什么大哲理，其实不然，我只是在逃避。我跟本无法顺其自然，甚至限制着自己的想法。我不想见到她，是因为我在逃避，因为我还在意。
以前，当我不开心时都会习惯性地找她倾诉；不知从什么时候起，我开始压抑着自己不再找她，把烦恼都藏在心里。我怕她当时心情也不好，为她增加烦恼；我怕她正忙着，不太方便；我怕和她的世界不相同，彼此会有隔核。其实，我都知道这一切只是给自己的借口，我一直都在逃避。我知道我和她并不是同一世界的人，我知道我和她并不可能，我也知道我配不上她。说穿了，我在她面前变得自卑。我曾经很相信，真心可以胜过一切，但事实证明是我太天真了。她家庭富有，条件出众，身边也从不乏追求者，我真的自觉高攀不起。曾经美好的回忆，对我来说可能就是最好的回报了。我不懂为何我会这样的懦弱，对不起。
感情应该要拿得起、放得下，但偏偏我是个很难放下的人。我尝试放下，学习着如何放下，也开始见到效果了。我知道既然已做出了选择，就不应该再拖泥带水。我是个不太喜欢改变的人，但也是时候作出改变了。
Monday, August 17, 2009
心理测验
昨晚，一位朋友以手机传来了封心理测验。那是一个我很久前玩过的心理测验，也不太记得是测些什么了。想了一阵子，我做出了以下的回答。心理测验（填充）：
1.
2.伟杰
3.良正
4.诗咏
5.
6.说好的幸福呢
7.突然好想你
8.我会好好过
9.我还想她
*1和5需填写异性的名，2,3,4填写朋友的名（男女都行），6,7,8,9填写歌名。
1你爱的人
2关心你的人
3了解你的人
4你的幸运星
5你喜欢但又不能在一起的人
6形容1号的歌
7形容5号的歌
8你的想法
9你平时的感受
这样的一个测验，究竟有多准呢？我的测验结果是，5还真的是我喜欢但又不能在一起的人，7也还真的是刚好对她的感觉。1是我爱的人？6是形容1号的歌？不敢多想…朋友说如果1不是她就代表我不认真做测验，哈哈！对于现在的我，喜欢不一定要追求，只要她开心就好。我还是喜欢现在的感觉。8是我的想法，我会好好过，还蛮符合现在的我。9是我平时的感受，我还想她。也对，我还是常常会想起她。
一个无聊的心灵测验，却意外令我更加地看清自己。
1.
2.伟杰
3.良正
4.诗咏
5.
6.说好的幸福呢
7.突然好想你
8.我会好好过
9.我还想她
*1和5需填写异性的名，2,3,4填写朋友的名（男女都行），6,7,8,9填写歌名。
1你爱的人
2关心你的人
3了解你的人
4你的幸运星
5你喜欢但又不能在一起的人
6形容1号的歌
7形容5号的歌
8你的想法
9你平时的感受
这样的一个测验，究竟有多准呢？我的测验结果是，5还真的是我喜欢但又不能在一起的人，7也还真的是刚好对她的感觉。1是我爱的人？6是形容1号的歌？不敢多想…朋友说如果1不是她就代表我不认真做测验，哈哈！对于现在的我，喜欢不一定要追求，只要她开心就好。我还是喜欢现在的感觉。8是我的想法，我会好好过，还蛮符合现在的我。9是我平时的感受，我还想她。也对，我还是常常会想起她。
一个无聊的心灵测验，却意外令我更加地看清自己。
Emo *金句*
1.勇气
最大的勇气不是战胜了强大的敌人，而是突破了内心的自己。
2.今天
人可以拥有很多个昨天，看不见尽头的明天，但永远只有一个今天。
3.珍惜
往往当我们珍惜某些东西时，其实正是逐渐地失去它；当觉悟时，才哀叹自己不懂得珍惜。
4.失去
人应要为失去而感到开心，因为失去让选择更多、未来更美好。
5.过去
过去的美好是因为人的怀旧，当现在成为过去，现在也就成为美好的回忆。
6.机会
人错失的机会，永远比得到的还要多；把握的机会，永远比得到的还要少。
7.拥有
人极少会为自己所拥有的感到庆幸，但却常为别人所拥有的心生羡慕。
最大的勇气不是战胜了强大的敌人，而是突破了内心的自己。
2.今天
人可以拥有很多个昨天，看不见尽头的明天，但永远只有一个今天。
3.珍惜
往往当我们珍惜某些东西时，其实正是逐渐地失去它；当觉悟时，才哀叹自己不懂得珍惜。
4.失去
人应要为失去而感到开心，因为失去让选择更多、未来更美好。
5.过去
过去的美好是因为人的怀旧，当现在成为过去，现在也就成为美好的回忆。
6.机会
人错失的机会，永远比得到的还要多；把握的机会，永远比得到的还要少。
7.拥有
人极少会为自己所拥有的感到庆幸，但却常为别人所拥有的心生羡慕。
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Sick...
Just knowing that my junior fell sick again le
Absent for today lesson and tomorrow also i think
Dunno why her antibody so nOob ><
Always lose to virus and bacteria
Hope that she may recover soon and be strong
So that wont so easily get sick le
Wish can see her at school soon =>
Hate L.O.A. !!!
Recently, i really lost my patience towards this type of people - L.O.A people. May be someone will ask, what meant by L.O.A. ? Well, this type of people is what we called lack of attention people. How we consider a people is L.O.A.? People who lacking of attention usually has a few symptoms :
1. will trying 2 catch people attention all the time by doing some annoying thing
2. will think that the whole world need 2 follow their way to go on
3. easily envy 2 someone which sparkling than them
4. behave like a childish and foolish
5. betray their friends and always try 2 spoil their friend good name
6. doing something without thinking, brainless
There are some obvious symptoms that normally a L.O.A. people will did. In my life of time, i never meet a people like that. Better late than never, i witnessed it in this few months. I'm hard to say that, she is my friend which i treat her with true hearts. However, i won't feel any sadness for now because i really have enough for it.
I never saw this before. Did u ever seen a people like 2 keep 'kao pe' without any contribution? May be her attitude is like that, but the worst is she like to crapping nonsense behind without 'filter' it through her brain. I would like 2 say sorry 2 God because it really a resource waste.
She didn't realized that more and more people started 2 keep away from her and discussing about what she did. Congrats i want 2 say because this L.O.A. people was success doing what she want. Unfortunately, people will only remembered her silly action. Did u ever seen a people sending message to friends around just to spoil a friend name? We are in a same group of friends but she did so, luckily 2 say the victim not me.
If a people is rational, he or she will think once before doing an action but not L.O.A. people. L.O.A. people always eager people 2 follow her ways in everything although honestly 2 say she didn't not has any contribution. This fact is obvious and clearly saw by many peoples. I think that she is the only one who don't know this. Naive? I don't think so.
If a people is good enough, automatically people will put their intention on you. But L.O.A. people wouldn't not think that way. In their point of view, they will always do something 2 catch people attention. A lot of weird and childish thing they will think and do. May be blogging 2 express her imagination is one of the way i think. Or talking something bad behind her friend.
Luckily, nowadays we had retired and finally can more concentrate on our study. We also wont had much chance 2 organize activity together anymore. Although i am very dissapointed with her, but sincerely i hope she will realized and change one day. If she willing and change it, we are always friends.
1. will trying 2 catch people attention all the time by doing some annoying thing
2. will think that the whole world need 2 follow their way to go on
3. easily envy 2 someone which sparkling than them
4. behave like a childish and foolish
5. betray their friends and always try 2 spoil their friend good name
6. doing something without thinking, brainless
There are some obvious symptoms that normally a L.O.A. people will did. In my life of time, i never meet a people like that. Better late than never, i witnessed it in this few months. I'm hard to say that, she is my friend which i treat her with true hearts. However, i won't feel any sadness for now because i really have enough for it.
I never saw this before. Did u ever seen a people like 2 keep 'kao pe' without any contribution? May be her attitude is like that, but the worst is she like to crapping nonsense behind without 'filter' it through her brain. I would like 2 say sorry 2 God because it really a resource waste.
She didn't realized that more and more people started 2 keep away from her and discussing about what she did. Congrats i want 2 say because this L.O.A. people was success doing what she want. Unfortunately, people will only remembered her silly action. Did u ever seen a people sending message to friends around just to spoil a friend name? We are in a same group of friends but she did so, luckily 2 say the victim not me.
If a people is rational, he or she will think once before doing an action but not L.O.A. people. L.O.A. people always eager people 2 follow her ways in everything although honestly 2 say she didn't not has any contribution. This fact is obvious and clearly saw by many peoples. I think that she is the only one who don't know this. Naive? I don't think so.
If a people is good enough, automatically people will put their intention on you. But L.O.A. people wouldn't not think that way. In their point of view, they will always do something 2 catch people attention. A lot of weird and childish thing they will think and do. May be blogging 2 express her imagination is one of the way i think. Or talking something bad behind her friend.
Luckily, nowadays we had retired and finally can more concentrate on our study. We also wont had much chance 2 organize activity together anymore. Although i am very dissapointed with her, but sincerely i hope she will realized and change one day. If she willing and change it, we are always friends.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
《心，解锁》…
最近，朋友们都把我和K扯在一起。他们都说，我喜欢她、在追求她，但都被我否认了。我对她好，因为她是我的学妹；我照顾她，因为我把她当成妹妹般看待。我的举动，难道就那么地令人怀疑吗？
凭心而论，现在感情对我来说就像是个泥沼。我好不容易才慢慢地从之前的泥沼里爬上来，真的不想再让自己深陷下去。换句话说，我害怕受伤害、也在自我保护。感情是件美好且开心的事情，但同时也极度容易让人崩溃。有朋友问我，你不会偶尔觉得寂寞吗？会啊，但想回起感情的苦，我宁愿选择像现在这样。常和我一起喝茶的朋友，都说我爱把心房锁起来。真的是这样吗？
在感情方面，我承认受之前阴影的影响，自己不再像以往那么勇敢，会有很多的顾虑。以前会很努力地追求自己的幸福，现在不会了。所以，每当朋友问到是否喜欢K时，我都会否认。我没去认真地想过，因为有或没有对我来说都是一样。既然如此，我觉得没必要去搞清楚。我对她的感觉是，会比较在意她，想看到她，和她一起的感觉是舒服的。对她的了解，可能并没多深，但她是个讨人喜爱且聪明的小女生。我喜欢K？不想去多想。我和她现在的关系已经足够了，并不想求变。甜蜜的回忆，就让它藏在心里，反正也没很多。
这一篇部落格，就是我内心世界的真实想法。我知道有点像鸵鸟，但鸵鸟也是在自我保护…
凭心而论，现在感情对我来说就像是个泥沼。我好不容易才慢慢地从之前的泥沼里爬上来，真的不想再让自己深陷下去。换句话说，我害怕受伤害、也在自我保护。感情是件美好且开心的事情，但同时也极度容易让人崩溃。有朋友问我，你不会偶尔觉得寂寞吗？会啊，但想回起感情的苦，我宁愿选择像现在这样。常和我一起喝茶的朋友，都说我爱把心房锁起来。真的是这样吗？
在感情方面，我承认受之前阴影的影响，自己不再像以往那么勇敢，会有很多的顾虑。以前会很努力地追求自己的幸福，现在不会了。所以，每当朋友问到是否喜欢K时，我都会否认。我没去认真地想过，因为有或没有对我来说都是一样。既然如此，我觉得没必要去搞清楚。我对她的感觉是，会比较在意她，想看到她，和她一起的感觉是舒服的。对她的了解，可能并没多深，但她是个讨人喜爱且聪明的小女生。我喜欢K？不想去多想。我和她现在的关系已经足够了，并不想求变。甜蜜的回忆，就让它藏在心里，反正也没很多。
这一篇部落格，就是我内心世界的真实想法。我知道有点像鸵鸟，但鸵鸟也是在自我保护…
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