今晚从外头回来，即遭到妈妈的责骂。原本已经心情不好的我，不想和她吵架，换了衣便躲进房间了。我心想，一定又是弟弟惹妈妈生气了。问了弟弟后，才知道真正的原因。原来，妈妈留了炒饭给我，但被爸爸吃掉了。令妈妈生气的是，爸爸说了今晚不要煮他的，却吃掉了我的炒饭。更令她生气的是，爸爸只吃了一半，就说不吃了。
因为爱，所以骂，当我说已经吃过晚餐时，当场被妈妈骂了一顿。我知道，妈妈生气是对的、是有理由的，都是我的错。所以，有时候被责骂，不要马上反应出自己的不悦，想想被责骂的原因，往往是因为骂你的人在乎你、爱护你。因为爱，所以骂，是有其道理的。
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
压力
终于懈下了老师的包伏，但感觉我的生活并不会因此而空闲，反而会更加地忙碌。这个五月份，我有太多东西等着我去做了。本想找份兼职来做做，赚些平日开销，但现在看来真的有些难度。我要顾虑饥饿30、上大学的事宜和我的事业。这三项事物，都是我非常注重且在意的。我会投入很多时间和精神在饥饿30，因为这是我应该做的、我的责任。我知道过程中会遇到很多挑战和难题，但我相信这一切都是能克服的。大学的事宜，需要时不时去留意，时不时去想想，毕竟即将进入人生的另一个平台。事业方面，我也必需把较多的精神和时间放进去，否则我的目标就难以实现。结果呢？我可以想象五月份的我会面临许多挑战，可以想像我会很累。这些，我都可以应付，我相信我可以的。只希望当我累坏的时候、需要鼓励的时候、需要依靠的时候，可以有个可靠的地方让我躺下、歇下……等下我就要出席一个奖学金的面试，有点紧张，希望一切顺利吧:-)
Saturday, May 1, 2010
5月1日
《初恋红豆冰》的主角botak，最终还是自私地选择把心底话藏在心里，只留下回忆给彼此。我怕自己也会一样地自私，毕竟告白需要很大的勇气。
理智和感觉，是上天对人类的两大恩赐。说到感情，还是需要由感觉来决定。感觉让我终于诚实地面对自己，说出了理智上不该说的话。我是个普通人，有着普通的想法，心里期望的当然是能和你一起。周遭的例子让大家都有所顾虑，但人的决定是有能力改变这一切的。被信赖的感觉是美好的，希望你也能相信我这一次。现在我们是很好，但将来会更好。我相信你说的话，我会等待空格上的答案，也填上了我的答案。无论结果如何，我都会学着接受，但我希望故事能够沿续着，我们一起演好这一则故事。
理智和感觉，是上天对人类的两大恩赐。说到感情，还是需要由感觉来决定。感觉让我终于诚实地面对自己，说出了理智上不该说的话。我是个普通人，有着普通的想法，心里期望的当然是能和你一起。周遭的例子让大家都有所顾虑，但人的决定是有能力改变这一切的。被信赖的感觉是美好的，希望你也能相信我这一次。现在我们是很好，但将来会更好。我相信你说的话，我会等待空格上的答案，也填上了我的答案。无论结果如何，我都会学着接受，但我希望故事能够沿续着，我们一起演好这一则故事。
Friday, April 16, 2010
年度笑话
现在我发觉,原来当你喜欢一个人时,很多事情都不会去介意。其实，这已经是大众都懂得的道理。
可能有时我真的像个“老人”，习惯想很多有的没有的，但会想都是因为想要有个美好的将来。其实，有时候当没奢望什么时，就是最容易开心、笑容最多的时候。我说的话，尤其在情感方面，都是一字一句想过才说的。情感没有保证期，但是只要你相信，它就会一直存在。期限？直到其中一方不再选择相信为止…其实有时幸福很简单，只要你的一句慰问、一封简讯，就会感到很幸福了。当然，它也可以变得很复杂。我需要的，是简单、平淡、安稳的幸福…
狗宝宝问狗妈妈：“要怎样才可以找到幸福呢？”狗妈妈回答说：“幸福就系在你的尾巴上，只要你一直往前走，幸福就会一直跟着你。”可能，幸福真的并不用刻意去寻找的吧…
可能有时我真的像个“老人”，习惯想很多有的没有的，但会想都是因为想要有个美好的将来。其实，有时候当没奢望什么时，就是最容易开心、笑容最多的时候。我说的话，尤其在情感方面，都是一字一句想过才说的。情感没有保证期，但是只要你相信，它就会一直存在。期限？直到其中一方不再选择相信为止…其实有时幸福很简单，只要你的一句慰问、一封简讯，就会感到很幸福了。当然，它也可以变得很复杂。我需要的，是简单、平淡、安稳的幸福…
狗宝宝问狗妈妈：“要怎样才可以找到幸福呢？”狗妈妈回答说：“幸福就系在你的尾巴上，只要你一直往前走，幸福就会一直跟着你。”可能，幸福真的并不用刻意去寻找的吧…
Sunday, March 28, 2010
一个星期了…
好快，一个星期又过去了。这个星期，没什么特别的事发生，但却有几件事情让我印象深刻。
不知不觉，已经生病一个星期了。其实也并不是什么大病，但就是好不了。这一切都是我咎由自取，没好好照顾自己。喉咙痛，看了医生，药却只吃过三次；咳嗽，明知不能喝冷的饮料，却还拼命喝。生病了，却还常出去到凌晨才归家。所以我病一个星期，并不值得可怜。很多东西，明知道，却不愿去做，人也许就是喜欢有点叛逆。
早上，5点多临睡前，我告诉自己真的要好好照顾身体了，明天什么地方也不去。记得当天，她生病了还留校读书，我不开心地说了她几句。我心想，生病了就应该多休息，干嘛让自己辛苦。现在，我却也重复回同样的事…人，也许都是喜欢说别人，却不会说自己的吧…
不知不觉，已经生病一个星期了。其实也并不是什么大病，但就是好不了。这一切都是我咎由自取，没好好照顾自己。喉咙痛，看了医生，药却只吃过三次；咳嗽，明知不能喝冷的饮料，却还拼命喝。生病了，却还常出去到凌晨才归家。所以我病一个星期，并不值得可怜。很多东西，明知道，却不愿去做，人也许就是喜欢有点叛逆。
早上，5点多临睡前，我告诉自己真的要好好照顾身体了，明天什么地方也不去。记得当天，她生病了还留校读书，我不开心地说了她几句。我心想，生病了就应该多休息，干嘛让自己辛苦。现在，我却也重复回同样的事…人，也许都是喜欢说别人，却不会说自己的吧…
Sunday, March 14, 2010
CONGRATZ Chong Wei !!!
Congratulation to our Dato Lee Chong Wei for winning his first All England title just now. Both of them, Chong Wei and K.Tago had played a nice games. I am lucky that i watching this tight and interesting game live.
Actually, i thought today final is Chong Wei versus Bao Chun Lai. I admit that i'm a bit outdated that i just knowing that Chun Lai beat Lin Dan in quarter final and facing a Japanese player in semi final. I guess that final sure is between China and Malaysia but the fact showed that i'm wrong. Chun Lai lost in his semi final to that Japanese player.
K.Tago is his name! A biggest surprise in this All England competiton. Tonight, he showed to all the world why he is playing in the final. He gived our Chong Wei the hardest and biggest challenge before Chong Wei grab the title for his first time. If told that the score was 21-19, 21-19, i think that many of us sure will be shocked. But the most impress was K.Tago beat Chen Jin and Chun Lai before he could enter today final. Nowadys, this is really a big achievement especially for a Non-Badminton country, Japan.
Luckily, our Chong Wei did a very good job tonight. From heart, he has improve a lot. If he manage to keep this good performance until Thomas Cup, i think China team will be very headache for it.
Last words, congrats again to Chong Wei! And also K.Tago... You really impressed all the world. One day, i believe that you also can beat Lin Dan! A good player always can make a difference...
Actually, i thought today final is Chong Wei versus Bao Chun Lai. I admit that i'm a bit outdated that i just knowing that Chun Lai beat Lin Dan in quarter final and facing a Japanese player in semi final. I guess that final sure is between China and Malaysia but the fact showed that i'm wrong. Chun Lai lost in his semi final to that Japanese player.
K.Tago is his name! A biggest surprise in this All England competiton. Tonight, he showed to all the world why he is playing in the final. He gived our Chong Wei the hardest and biggest challenge before Chong Wei grab the title for his first time. If told that the score was 21-19, 21-19, i think that many of us sure will be shocked. But the most impress was K.Tago beat Chen Jin and Chun Lai before he could enter today final. Nowadys, this is really a big achievement especially for a Non-Badminton country, Japan.
Luckily, our Chong Wei did a very good job tonight. From heart, he has improve a lot. If he manage to keep this good performance until Thomas Cup, i think China team will be very headache for it.
Last words, congrats again to Chong Wei! And also K.Tago... You really impressed all the world. One day, i believe that you also can beat Lin Dan! A good player always can make a difference...
Friday, February 5, 2010
我想念你们!
有些朋友，自从中五毕业后就很少见面了。以前，一天在学校见几次面，但现在两年多了才见那么几次。长大了，大家都各忙各的，都有属于自己的生活。一些朋友，也慢慢地离自己越来越远。虽然如此，仍然有几位朋友是特别的，自己会不时地想念他们。曾经在自己的生活里，留下重要的色彩，要遗忘也不是那么地容易。
我有个好妹妹，已经好一段时间没见到她了。和她，虽然偶尔有通电话，但毕竟电话和见面是完全不一样的感觉。曾经，我和她暧昧得连朋友都说我和她在一起。虽然有她这样的一位女朋友也不错，但我知道我对她的好是因为她是我的好妹妹。我们没有血联关系，但我仍然把她当成自己的妹妹看待，想保护她。现在，她也在恋爱中，经营着一段不简单的爱情。无论结果如何，我依然感到很开心因为她成长了，懂得该如何处理自己的感情。突然好想可以和她一起走沙滩，吹吹海风，就像毕业旅行时一样。
还有位知心朋友，也是很长的一段时间没见面了。她陪我度过了我的中学生涯，我也陪她度过了难熬的日子。我和她的认识，是从初一时我追求她开始。当时她拒绝了我，但我们却成为了彼此的知心朋友。我们试过通五个小时的电话，把自己不可告人的秘密告诉对方，成为彼此的依赖。虽然我们都少联络了，但我心里仍然很珍惜她。我也知道，她也很珍惜我这一位知心朋友的。
另外一位朋友，是我曾经很在乎的一位女生。她改变了我，认识到她算是我的福气。曾经，她是我的精神支柱，是我动力的来源。我带过给她欢笑，也无意中带过给她烦恼。她让我明白，喜欢不一定要拥有，也不能只凭一颗心。从那一刻起，我不再追求她，直到我有能力保护她为止。现在，我们是好朋友，希望过后也是。如果可以许个愿望，我希望她幸福。
再则，我想念我的小学妹。她是一位自信、守信用且有想法的漂亮女生，同时也是我很信任的朋友。在我受到攻击时，她会选择完全地相信我，不理会外面的胡言乱语。有这样的一位学妹，除了有幸还能说什么？很多人不知道，我对她也是百分百地信任，只要是她说的，我都会相信。虽然她给人的感觉是个性爽朗，但对我而言她却是个小女人。我知道她会努力读书，也相信她可以考得好成绩，但愿真的是这样。她教过我，喜欢一个人不要让她知道。我不知道是什么道理，但我也就收藏在心里好了。喜欢不一定要拥有…
我想念你、想念她、也想念另一个他。虽然我们都在不同的环境里，希望你和她都可以常微笑。笑一笑，没有什么事情过不了。
我有个好妹妹，已经好一段时间没见到她了。和她，虽然偶尔有通电话，但毕竟电话和见面是完全不一样的感觉。曾经，我和她暧昧得连朋友都说我和她在一起。虽然有她这样的一位女朋友也不错，但我知道我对她的好是因为她是我的好妹妹。我们没有血联关系，但我仍然把她当成自己的妹妹看待，想保护她。现在，她也在恋爱中，经营着一段不简单的爱情。无论结果如何，我依然感到很开心因为她成长了，懂得该如何处理自己的感情。突然好想可以和她一起走沙滩，吹吹海风，就像毕业旅行时一样。
还有位知心朋友，也是很长的一段时间没见面了。她陪我度过了我的中学生涯，我也陪她度过了难熬的日子。我和她的认识，是从初一时我追求她开始。当时她拒绝了我，但我们却成为了彼此的知心朋友。我们试过通五个小时的电话，把自己不可告人的秘密告诉对方，成为彼此的依赖。虽然我们都少联络了，但我心里仍然很珍惜她。我也知道，她也很珍惜我这一位知心朋友的。
另外一位朋友，是我曾经很在乎的一位女生。她改变了我，认识到她算是我的福气。曾经，她是我的精神支柱，是我动力的来源。我带过给她欢笑，也无意中带过给她烦恼。她让我明白，喜欢不一定要拥有，也不能只凭一颗心。从那一刻起，我不再追求她，直到我有能力保护她为止。现在，我们是好朋友，希望过后也是。如果可以许个愿望，我希望她幸福。
再则，我想念我的小学妹。她是一位自信、守信用且有想法的漂亮女生，同时也是我很信任的朋友。在我受到攻击时，她会选择完全地相信我，不理会外面的胡言乱语。有这样的一位学妹，除了有幸还能说什么？很多人不知道，我对她也是百分百地信任，只要是她说的，我都会相信。虽然她给人的感觉是个性爽朗，但对我而言她却是个小女人。我知道她会努力读书，也相信她可以考得好成绩，但愿真的是这样。她教过我，喜欢一个人不要让她知道。我不知道是什么道理，但我也就收藏在心里好了。喜欢不一定要拥有…
我想念你、想念她、也想念另一个他。虽然我们都在不同的环境里，希望你和她都可以常微笑。笑一笑，没有什么事情过不了。
Monday, December 21, 2009
5 mins PoSt...
STPM already passed two weeks. Don't know what result will i get, but i already try my best. I hope to be like U Fern, one of my senior who now study law in UM.
Recently busy with finding works, lot of works i had find but until no one is confirm. Hope that i will get what i want.
2010 is coming. I grow up 1 years again. Many things need to do, must be more mature than before.
5 minutes reach, byez ^^
Recently busy with finding works, lot of works i had find but until no one is confirm. Hope that i will get what i want.
2010 is coming. I grow up 1 years again. Many things need to do, must be more mature than before.
5 minutes reach, byez ^^
Thursday, November 5, 2009
One month before...
Suddenly realized that i already one month didn't update my blog. Still one month to go, for me to finish STPM. After that, my form 6 life is END. What i should do after that? Actually i have a lot of plans playing in my brain, yet i never tell others.
Tomorrow, is a important day for me. Tomorrow is my last economic tuition class. That means our form 6 syllabus is finish. I still remember last year when i start joining Ms.Lim tuition class but now come to the end. One and the half years actually passed very fast. She is a good teacher, not just only good in teaching but in all the way how she treated her students.
Besides, another teacher i like the most is my history teacher, Pn.Dana. Although some of the people thought she was fierce and strict, but for me she is good and kind. It was so lucky to be her student, because she treat her student VERY VERY good! I know that sometime my friends was jealous too. HAHA...
I think this really my last post before STPM. Add oils ya all my friends! Jia you jia you and beat STPM!
Tomorrow, is a important day for me. Tomorrow is my last economic tuition class. That means our form 6 syllabus is finish. I still remember last year when i start joining Ms.Lim tuition class but now come to the end. One and the half years actually passed very fast. She is a good teacher, not just only good in teaching but in all the way how she treated her students.
Besides, another teacher i like the most is my history teacher, Pn.Dana. Although some of the people thought she was fierce and strict, but for me she is good and kind. It was so lucky to be her student, because she treat her student VERY VERY good! I know that sometime my friends was jealous too. HAHA...
I think this really my last post before STPM. Add oils ya all my friends! Jia you jia you and beat STPM!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
近7心声……
离开部落格已经好一段时间了。
在这短短的几个月内，许多人、事、物也将随之改变，这也称为人生。每回想更新部落格，也不知要从何下手。简单的，随性的，以近7心声概括我最近的生活。
1.星期六晚上和一位好久没联络的朋友聊电话，我们从凌晨12点多聊到5点多，从天聊到地。与麻吉聊天，总是有种温馨又舒服的感觉。我喜欢这种感觉，也很珍惜她这一位知心好友。
2.近期电影，我重点推荐Tsunami，一部尝试新突破的韩国电影。运用鲜明的拍摄手法，简练且不累赘，带出变化无常的人生。在海啸与死亡降临之际，才发现原来她是你最珍惜的人……
3.最近多了个妹妹，可是对她却不像对之前的妹妹那么地百般呵护。虽然我和她都少联络了，但她还是无法被替代。嗯，我也会好好地对现在的这一个妹妹，做一个好哥哥。
4.当别人说她的负面时，我会为她澄清、挺她；当某件事情有两个版本时，我选择相信她。我有否喜欢她并不重要，我只想维持现状，一切顺利自然。喜欢一个人不一定要和她在一起，因为表达爱的方法不单单只有在一起而已。
5.拿了成绩，论付出和收获而言，我应该满足了。但实际上，我仍然不满意。虽然都比之前付出得多，但我知道依然不足够，不足够达成我的目标。
6.看见某些人，就会觉得很有压力，觉得自己付出得太少。我很努力地回到从前，回到从前的那一个国泰，但仍然有些差距。与朋友的竞争，与自己的决斗，我必需胜出，才不会有任何的遗憾。
7.最近都较少和她联络，之前刻意不找她，因为自卑心作祟，觉得自己和她有很大的距离。她仍然是以前的她，只是我不再是以前的我罢了。终于明白，有一种喜欢人的方式叫自我增值。而我，选择了这一种方式，牺牲当下，期望明天。
在这短短的几个月内，许多人、事、物也将随之改变，这也称为人生。每回想更新部落格，也不知要从何下手。简单的，随性的，以近7心声概括我最近的生活。
1.星期六晚上和一位好久没联络的朋友聊电话，我们从凌晨12点多聊到5点多，从天聊到地。与麻吉聊天，总是有种温馨又舒服的感觉。我喜欢这种感觉，也很珍惜她这一位知心好友。
2.近期电影，我重点推荐Tsunami，一部尝试新突破的韩国电影。运用鲜明的拍摄手法，简练且不累赘，带出变化无常的人生。在海啸与死亡降临之际，才发现原来她是你最珍惜的人……
3.最近多了个妹妹，可是对她却不像对之前的妹妹那么地百般呵护。虽然我和她都少联络了，但她还是无法被替代。嗯，我也会好好地对现在的这一个妹妹，做一个好哥哥。
4.当别人说她的负面时，我会为她澄清、挺她；当某件事情有两个版本时，我选择相信她。我有否喜欢她并不重要，我只想维持现状，一切顺利自然。喜欢一个人不一定要和她在一起，因为表达爱的方法不单单只有在一起而已。
5.拿了成绩，论付出和收获而言，我应该满足了。但实际上，我仍然不满意。虽然都比之前付出得多，但我知道依然不足够，不足够达成我的目标。
6.看见某些人，就会觉得很有压力，觉得自己付出得太少。我很努力地回到从前，回到从前的那一个国泰，但仍然有些差距。与朋友的竞争，与自己的决斗，我必需胜出，才不会有任何的遗憾。
7.最近都较少和她联络，之前刻意不找她，因为自卑心作祟，觉得自己和她有很大的距离。她仍然是以前的她，只是我不再是以前的我罢了。终于明白，有一种喜欢人的方式叫自我增值。而我，选择了这一种方式，牺牲当下，期望明天。
Friday, September 4, 2009
Lazy... lazy...
Yesterday, i took my PA paper 2 and MUET writing exam. For me, the exam was still ok because i still can answer all the questions. At night, i went for fustal until 1am something. After that, i went 'lim teh' with my best friends until 3am something. Oh my God... >< haiz...
Actually i plan to study the whole day today. But may be due to yesterday night activity, i'm damn tired today. NO mood to study... CHAM! Next weeks is a important week, need taking Sejarah(dunia&Islam) paper, Makroekonomi and BM paper 2. None of the paper is easy. Damn...
I had received my first birthday present yesterday, from a girls. Haha ^^ Thanks a lot for the present because it really a big surprise for me. So touching when open and saw the present.
Outlook of my first present for this year
Opened it slowly and carefully... see i so 'xi xin'
WaOooo....is a MP4... surprise!!!
Suddenly feel so touching le...
Wan to tell her that i like it very very much ^^
I found a resit inside...think is the most expensive birthday present i had received
Don't worry.., i will appreciate it for the whole life ^^ Thx loh
Actually i plan to open it on my birthday but early opened it because really want to know what inside this small green box. Besides, i seldom saw people wrapped present with A4 paper also. At first, she told me is another thing and i really believe with it. May be she looks too trustworthy gua...because i won't admit that i easy to cheat. Again, i been cheated by her when i opened it. Really a big big big surprise leh ^^I still remember last time i said that she don't know how to give people surprise but now i already received 2 surprise from her.
Back to reality, trial exam was just started but i still dare to let myself relax for this whole day. i just can say, 'Good luck to you, kok thai'. Hmm... Hapi Birthday to Me also ^^
Actually i plan to study the whole day today. But may be due to yesterday night activity, i'm damn tired today. NO mood to study... CHAM! Next weeks is a important week, need taking Sejarah(dunia&Islam) paper, Makroekonomi and BM paper 2. None of the paper is easy. Damn...
I had received my first birthday present yesterday, from a girls. Haha ^^ Thanks a lot for the present because it really a big surprise for me. So touching when open and saw the present.
Outlook of my first present for this year
Opened it slowly and carefully... see i so 'xi xin'
WaOooo....is a MP4... surprise!!!
Suddenly feel so touching le...
Wan to tell her that i like it very very much ^^
I found a resit inside...think is the most expensive birthday present i had received
Don't worry.., i will appreciate it for the whole life ^^ Thx loh
Actually i plan to open it on my birthday but early opened it because really want to know what inside this small green box. Besides, i seldom saw people wrapped present with A4 paper also. At first, she told me is another thing and i really believe with it. May be she looks too trustworthy gua...because i won't admit that i easy to cheat. Again, i been cheated by her when i opened it. Really a big big big surprise leh ^^I still remember last time i said that she don't know how to give people surprise but now i already received 2 surprise from her.
Back to reality, trial exam was just started but i still dare to let myself relax for this whole day. i just can say, 'Good luck to you, kok thai'. Hmm... Hapi Birthday to Me also ^^
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Post before TRIAl ><
Trial exam is coming. I think this is my last post before trial. Same as usual, exam bring me a lot of pressure and i think it is same to others. I just hope that i could achieve the targets in my mind. I no need a very good results but at least not too bad. I know that it is very difficult for me to achieve 4As' in STPM but i will try hard and never give up.
My birthday is coming also. Unfortunately, this year birthday fall on my trial exam. Sigh >< Special thanks to those who wished me last year. Shi yong, Yee chian, Mei ying, Shy miin, Mun jie, Wee wen, Jean yi, Wei wei, Teng ann, Ker wei, Huei ying, Sok kuan, Pei chi, Junn terng, Kai wen, Si wah, Pea woon, Wei shan, Lee ping, Yin yuin, Cai yi, Zhen yi, Kai han, Bao jia, Sher li, Poh yen, Sheen Jze, Wai mun, Chor yau, Jean nie, Chia khuan, Sern tat, Xue ying, Ying yi, Kwee wen, Ying jie & Kin keuw. It was really happy and comfort when received wishes from friends. ^^
Finally, i want to remind my junior what she said. At the same time, i hope she will have the chance like Chia Heng, always feel so proud with his foster. Hope so, but i konw that it needs a lot of sacrify.
Haix... study... But after i leave form 6, i know i will damn miss FORM 6 LIFEs.
*I promise that i will never let myself regret. *
My birthday is coming also. Unfortunately, this year birthday fall on my trial exam. Sigh >< Special thanks to those who wished me last year. Shi yong, Yee chian, Mei ying, Shy miin, Mun jie, Wee wen, Jean yi, Wei wei, Teng ann, Ker wei, Huei ying, Sok kuan, Pei chi, Junn terng, Kai wen, Si wah, Pea woon, Wei shan, Lee ping, Yin yuin, Cai yi, Zhen yi, Kai han, Bao jia, Sher li, Poh yen, Sheen Jze, Wai mun, Chor yau, Jean nie, Chia khuan, Sern tat, Xue ying, Ying yi, Kwee wen, Ying jie & Kin keuw. It was really happy and comfort when received wishes from friends. ^^
Finally, i want to remind my junior what she said. At the same time, i hope she will have the chance like Chia Heng, always feel so proud with his foster. Hope so, but i konw that it needs a lot of sacrify.
Haix... study... But after i leave form 6, i know i will damn miss FORM 6 LIFEs.
*I promise that i will never let myself regret. *
心，侧写
昨晚与朋友一起喝茶，谈了一些关于他感情的事。逃避，是因为你还在意着。我说了这样的一句话，但自己却忽略了好久。
不知从什么时候开始，我对自己说不想再见到她，也不想邀约她出来。我心想，一切顺其自然，若有缘的话3、5、7年后再偶然相遇也不错。这样一个奇怪的想法，像似领悟到了什么大哲理，其实不然，我只是在逃避。我跟本无法顺其自然，甚至限制着自己的想法。我不想见到她，是因为我在逃避，因为我还在意。
以前，当我不开心时都会习惯性地找她倾诉；不知从什么时候起，我开始压抑着自己不再找她，把烦恼都藏在心里。我怕她当时心情也不好，为她增加烦恼；我怕她正忙着，不太方便；我怕和她的世界不相同，彼此会有隔核。其实，我都知道这一切只是给自己的借口，我一直都在逃避。我知道我和她并不是同一世界的人，我知道我和她并不可能，我也知道我配不上她。说穿了，我在她面前变得自卑。我曾经很相信，真心可以胜过一切，但事实证明是我太天真了。她家庭富有，条件出众，身边也从不乏追求者，我真的自觉高攀不起。曾经美好的回忆，对我来说可能就是最好的回报了。我不懂为何我会这样的懦弱，对不起。
感情应该要拿得起、放得下，但偏偏我是个很难放下的人。我尝试放下，学习着如何放下，也开始见到效果了。我知道既然已做出了选择，就不应该再拖泥带水。我是个不太喜欢改变的人，但也是时候作出改变了。
不知从什么时候开始，我对自己说不想再见到她，也不想邀约她出来。我心想，一切顺其自然，若有缘的话3、5、7年后再偶然相遇也不错。这样一个奇怪的想法，像似领悟到了什么大哲理，其实不然，我只是在逃避。我跟本无法顺其自然，甚至限制着自己的想法。我不想见到她，是因为我在逃避，因为我还在意。
以前，当我不开心时都会习惯性地找她倾诉；不知从什么时候起，我开始压抑着自己不再找她，把烦恼都藏在心里。我怕她当时心情也不好，为她增加烦恼；我怕她正忙着，不太方便；我怕和她的世界不相同，彼此会有隔核。其实，我都知道这一切只是给自己的借口，我一直都在逃避。我知道我和她并不是同一世界的人，我知道我和她并不可能，我也知道我配不上她。说穿了，我在她面前变得自卑。我曾经很相信，真心可以胜过一切，但事实证明是我太天真了。她家庭富有，条件出众，身边也从不乏追求者，我真的自觉高攀不起。曾经美好的回忆，对我来说可能就是最好的回报了。我不懂为何我会这样的懦弱，对不起。
感情应该要拿得起、放得下，但偏偏我是个很难放下的人。我尝试放下，学习着如何放下，也开始见到效果了。我知道既然已做出了选择，就不应该再拖泥带水。我是个不太喜欢改变的人，但也是时候作出改变了。
Monday, August 17, 2009
心理测验
昨晚，一位朋友以手机传来了封心理测验。那是一个我很久前玩过的心理测验，也不太记得是测些什么了。想了一阵子，我做出了以下的回答。心理测验（填充）：
1.
2.伟杰
3.良正
4.诗咏
5.
6.说好的幸福呢
7.突然好想你
8.我会好好过
9.我还想她
*1和5需填写异性的名，2,3,4填写朋友的名（男女都行），6,7,8,9填写歌名。
1你爱的人
2关心你的人
3了解你的人
4你的幸运星
5你喜欢但又不能在一起的人
6形容1号的歌
7形容5号的歌
8你的想法
9你平时的感受
这样的一个测验，究竟有多准呢？我的测验结果是，5还真的是我喜欢但又不能在一起的人，7也还真的是刚好对她的感觉。1是我爱的人？6是形容1号的歌？不敢多想…朋友说如果1不是她就代表我不认真做测验，哈哈！对于现在的我，喜欢不一定要追求，只要她开心就好。我还是喜欢现在的感觉。8是我的想法，我会好好过，还蛮符合现在的我。9是我平时的感受，我还想她。也对，我还是常常会想起她。
一个无聊的心灵测验，却意外令我更加地看清自己。
1.
2.伟杰
3.良正
4.诗咏
5.
6.说好的幸福呢
7.突然好想你
8.我会好好过
9.我还想她
*1和5需填写异性的名，2,3,4填写朋友的名（男女都行），6,7,8,9填写歌名。
1你爱的人
2关心你的人
3了解你的人
4你的幸运星
5你喜欢但又不能在一起的人
6形容1号的歌
7形容5号的歌
8你的想法
9你平时的感受
这样的一个测验，究竟有多准呢？我的测验结果是，5还真的是我喜欢但又不能在一起的人，7也还真的是刚好对她的感觉。1是我爱的人？6是形容1号的歌？不敢多想…朋友说如果1不是她就代表我不认真做测验，哈哈！对于现在的我，喜欢不一定要追求，只要她开心就好。我还是喜欢现在的感觉。8是我的想法，我会好好过，还蛮符合现在的我。9是我平时的感受，我还想她。也对，我还是常常会想起她。
一个无聊的心灵测验，却意外令我更加地看清自己。
Emo *金句*
1.勇气
最大的勇气不是战胜了强大的敌人，而是突破了内心的自己。
2.今天
人可以拥有很多个昨天，看不见尽头的明天，但永远只有一个今天。
3.珍惜
往往当我们珍惜某些东西时，其实正是逐渐地失去它；当觉悟时，才哀叹自己不懂得珍惜。
4.失去
人应要为失去而感到开心，因为失去让选择更多、未来更美好。
5.过去
过去的美好是因为人的怀旧，当现在成为过去，现在也就成为美好的回忆。
6.机会
人错失的机会，永远比得到的还要多；把握的机会，永远比得到的还要少。
7.拥有
人极少会为自己所拥有的感到庆幸，但却常为别人所拥有的心生羡慕。
最大的勇气不是战胜了强大的敌人，而是突破了内心的自己。
2.今天
人可以拥有很多个昨天，看不见尽头的明天，但永远只有一个今天。
3.珍惜
往往当我们珍惜某些东西时，其实正是逐渐地失去它；当觉悟时，才哀叹自己不懂得珍惜。
4.失去
人应要为失去而感到开心，因为失去让选择更多、未来更美好。
5.过去
过去的美好是因为人的怀旧，当现在成为过去，现在也就成为美好的回忆。
6.机会
人错失的机会，永远比得到的还要多；把握的机会，永远比得到的还要少。
7.拥有
人极少会为自己所拥有的感到庆幸，但却常为别人所拥有的心生羡慕。
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Sick...
Just knowing that my junior fell sick again le
Absent for today lesson and tomorrow also i think
Dunno why her antibody so nOob ><
Always lose to virus and bacteria
Hope that she may recover soon and be strong
So that wont so easily get sick le
Wish can see her at school soon =>
Hate L.O.A. !!!
Recently, i really lost my patience towards this type of people - L.O.A people. May be someone will ask, what meant by L.O.A. ? Well, this type of people is what we called lack of attention people. How we consider a people is L.O.A.? People who lacking of attention usually has a few symptoms :
1. will trying 2 catch people attention all the time by doing some annoying thing
2. will think that the whole world need 2 follow their way to go on
3. easily envy 2 someone which sparkling than them
4. behave like a childish and foolish
5. betray their friends and always try 2 spoil their friend good name
6. doing something without thinking, brainless
There are some obvious symptoms that normally a L.O.A. people will did. In my life of time, i never meet a people like that. Better late than never, i witnessed it in this few months. I'm hard to say that, she is my friend which i treat her with true hearts. However, i won't feel any sadness for now because i really have enough for it.
I never saw this before. Did u ever seen a people like 2 keep 'kao pe' without any contribution? May be her attitude is like that, but the worst is she like to crapping nonsense behind without 'filter' it through her brain. I would like 2 say sorry 2 God because it really a resource waste.
She didn't realized that more and more people started 2 keep away from her and discussing about what she did. Congrats i want 2 say because this L.O.A. people was success doing what she want. Unfortunately, people will only remembered her silly action. Did u ever seen a people sending message to friends around just to spoil a friend name? We are in a same group of friends but she did so, luckily 2 say the victim not me.
If a people is rational, he or she will think once before doing an action but not L.O.A. people. L.O.A. people always eager people 2 follow her ways in everything although honestly 2 say she didn't not has any contribution. This fact is obvious and clearly saw by many peoples. I think that she is the only one who don't know this. Naive? I don't think so.
If a people is good enough, automatically people will put their intention on you. But L.O.A. people wouldn't not think that way. In their point of view, they will always do something 2 catch people attention. A lot of weird and childish thing they will think and do. May be blogging 2 express her imagination is one of the way i think. Or talking something bad behind her friend.
Luckily, nowadays we had retired and finally can more concentrate on our study. We also wont had much chance 2 organize activity together anymore. Although i am very dissapointed with her, but sincerely i hope she will realized and change one day. If she willing and change it, we are always friends.
1. will trying 2 catch people attention all the time by doing some annoying thing
2. will think that the whole world need 2 follow their way to go on
3. easily envy 2 someone which sparkling than them
4. behave like a childish and foolish
5. betray their friends and always try 2 spoil their friend good name
6. doing something without thinking, brainless
There are some obvious symptoms that normally a L.O.A. people will did. In my life of time, i never meet a people like that. Better late than never, i witnessed it in this few months. I'm hard to say that, she is my friend which i treat her with true hearts. However, i won't feel any sadness for now because i really have enough for it.
I never saw this before. Did u ever seen a people like 2 keep 'kao pe' without any contribution? May be her attitude is like that, but the worst is she like to crapping nonsense behind without 'filter' it through her brain. I would like 2 say sorry 2 God because it really a resource waste.
She didn't realized that more and more people started 2 keep away from her and discussing about what she did. Congrats i want 2 say because this L.O.A. people was success doing what she want. Unfortunately, people will only remembered her silly action. Did u ever seen a people sending message to friends around just to spoil a friend name? We are in a same group of friends but she did so, luckily 2 say the victim not me.
If a people is rational, he or she will think once before doing an action but not L.O.A. people. L.O.A. people always eager people 2 follow her ways in everything although honestly 2 say she didn't not has any contribution. This fact is obvious and clearly saw by many peoples. I think that she is the only one who don't know this. Naive? I don't think so.
If a people is good enough, automatically people will put their intention on you. But L.O.A. people wouldn't not think that way. In their point of view, they will always do something 2 catch people attention. A lot of weird and childish thing they will think and do. May be blogging 2 express her imagination is one of the way i think. Or talking something bad behind her friend.
Luckily, nowadays we had retired and finally can more concentrate on our study. We also wont had much chance 2 organize activity together anymore. Although i am very dissapointed with her, but sincerely i hope she will realized and change one day. If she willing and change it, we are always friends.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
《心，解锁》…
最近，朋友们都把我和K扯在一起。他们都说，我喜欢她、在追求她，但都被我否认了。我对她好，因为她是我的学妹；我照顾她，因为我把她当成妹妹般看待。我的举动，难道就那么地令人怀疑吗？
凭心而论，现在感情对我来说就像是个泥沼。我好不容易才慢慢地从之前的泥沼里爬上来，真的不想再让自己深陷下去。换句话说，我害怕受伤害、也在自我保护。感情是件美好且开心的事情，但同时也极度容易让人崩溃。有朋友问我，你不会偶尔觉得寂寞吗？会啊，但想回起感情的苦，我宁愿选择像现在这样。常和我一起喝茶的朋友，都说我爱把心房锁起来。真的是这样吗？
在感情方面，我承认受之前阴影的影响，自己不再像以往那么勇敢，会有很多的顾虑。以前会很努力地追求自己的幸福，现在不会了。所以，每当朋友问到是否喜欢K时，我都会否认。我没去认真地想过，因为有或没有对我来说都是一样。既然如此，我觉得没必要去搞清楚。我对她的感觉是，会比较在意她，想看到她，和她一起的感觉是舒服的。对她的了解，可能并没多深，但她是个讨人喜爱且聪明的小女生。我喜欢K？不想去多想。我和她现在的关系已经足够了，并不想求变。甜蜜的回忆，就让它藏在心里，反正也没很多。
这一篇部落格，就是我内心世界的真实想法。我知道有点像鸵鸟，但鸵鸟也是在自我保护…
凭心而论，现在感情对我来说就像是个泥沼。我好不容易才慢慢地从之前的泥沼里爬上来，真的不想再让自己深陷下去。换句话说，我害怕受伤害、也在自我保护。感情是件美好且开心的事情，但同时也极度容易让人崩溃。有朋友问我，你不会偶尔觉得寂寞吗？会啊，但想回起感情的苦，我宁愿选择像现在这样。常和我一起喝茶的朋友，都说我爱把心房锁起来。真的是这样吗？
在感情方面，我承认受之前阴影的影响，自己不再像以往那么勇敢，会有很多的顾虑。以前会很努力地追求自己的幸福，现在不会了。所以，每当朋友问到是否喜欢K时，我都会否认。我没去认真地想过，因为有或没有对我来说都是一样。既然如此，我觉得没必要去搞清楚。我对她的感觉是，会比较在意她，想看到她，和她一起的感觉是舒服的。对她的了解，可能并没多深，但她是个讨人喜爱且聪明的小女生。我喜欢K？不想去多想。我和她现在的关系已经足够了，并不想求变。甜蜜的回忆，就让它藏在心里，反正也没很多。
这一篇部落格，就是我内心世界的真实想法。我知道有点像鸵鸟，但鸵鸟也是在自我保护…
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Hearts
Yesterday nite, i hav a class gathering wit my 5S1 friends. Im happy to meet wit them again after quite a long time din meet with each other. Our life is different, college life and form 6 life. Many of them will go for further study overseas soon. So, this is our last gathering before they go chasing their dream. I really appreciate it very much. Thx guys... especially Marcus cauz he organized this activity for us. For those who will going further study soon, i will pray for u all ^^ GAmbateh ya friends. At the same time, i oso will study hard and chasing my dream in local uni. So, v must work hard together loh...
Recetly, many things happened consecutively. Major of them are unhappy stuff. I make my mum worried for the 1st time due to my skull thing. She scold me but i know she was very worry bout me. But mum, u must blieve ur son dat he is unbeatable. I promise wont make you worry anymore. Im damn tired with those gossip and rumours. Who started to spread all of this, they knew it. I hope that, pls stopped it when it havent too late. Our form 6, is like a war now, but is a silent war. I wish 2 stopped it so i din do any revenge until now. YY, KS, SY, u all know wat im thinking, thx ^^
Luckily, i still have my last property- my juniors. They are my motivation and the ppl who make me standing until now. My sejarah juniors,mte juniors and my lovely juniors, thx a lot. They all understand wat situation they all facing now but they din influenced by those stupid stuff. But i know, sumtime they are unhapi too. However, im proud of them. Prove it out dat u all can make it! Another junior, who bring a lot of prob 2 me sumtime, yet im still blive and care bout her. I hope i wont judge wrong ppl not beacause i blieve wit my choice but i blieve wit u. Sumtime when i emo, she will bring me some hapi elements. Thx thx thx ^^ Nxt week is our skull prom, she is my partner and i hope we will enjoy it very much.
MTE days just left 10 days only. I start 2 woorry bout their task. Although this is a normal feeling but i really hope they can success this activity. And i know, u all will make it! Sumtime i think, quarrel, gossip, spreading rumours all this is for wat act? For me, all of this is meaningless. I know i cant do anything on it, hope ppl doing wat i wish, but sincerely i hope they will stop the war and bring peace back.
Recetly, many things happened consecutively. Major of them are unhappy stuff. I make my mum worried for the 1st time due to my skull thing. She scold me but i know she was very worry bout me. But mum, u must blieve ur son dat he is unbeatable. I promise wont make you worry anymore. Im damn tired with those gossip and rumours. Who started to spread all of this, they knew it. I hope that, pls stopped it when it havent too late. Our form 6, is like a war now, but is a silent war. I wish 2 stopped it so i din do any revenge until now. YY, KS, SY, u all know wat im thinking, thx ^^
Luckily, i still have my last property- my juniors. They are my motivation and the ppl who make me standing until now. My sejarah juniors,mte juniors and my lovely juniors, thx a lot. They all understand wat situation they all facing now but they din influenced by those stupid stuff. But i know, sumtime they are unhapi too. However, im proud of them. Prove it out dat u all can make it! Another junior, who bring a lot of prob 2 me sumtime, yet im still blive and care bout her. I hope i wont judge wrong ppl not beacause i blieve wit my choice but i blieve wit u. Sumtime when i emo, she will bring me some hapi elements. Thx thx thx ^^ Nxt week is our skull prom, she is my partner and i hope we will enjoy it very much.
MTE days just left 10 days only. I start 2 woorry bout their task. Although this is a normal feeling but i really hope they can success this activity. And i know, u all will make it! Sumtime i think, quarrel, gossip, spreading rumours all this is for wat act? For me, all of this is meaningless. I know i cant do anything on it, hope ppl doing wat i wish, but sincerely i hope they will stop the war and bring peace back.
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